Why thank you!! :D

mechanimator:
What's your favorite Pokemon? How about game character in general?

A) That’s a hard one. Non-Legendaries, I’m torn between Gengar, Houndoom [and it’s mega evolution] and Ninetails. Luxray, Feraligatr, and all of the Porygons are close runner-ups. Legendary, Darkrai and Shiny Rayquaza. 

B) Amaterasu from Okami, only because she was a wolf. I never got to play a lot of games, my little brother was [and still is] a consel hog. >:( 

Fears

lostshad3:

Up late tonight, again. Will be gone all day tomorrow and the following day. I should rest right now, but I feel a need to let out some thoughts.

I normally put my mind in this wild fantasy, regarding art and my future career as an artist [clearing that up so you don’t get the wrong idea here]. I…

On a brighter note, I will be taking an art class this summer. :3 Very excited to get back to basics, because I really need to do so. 

Fears

Up late tonight, again. Will be gone all day tomorrow and the following day. I should rest right now, but I feel a need to let out some thoughts.

I normally put my mind in this wild fantasy, regarding art and my future career as an artist [clearing that up so you don’t get the wrong idea here]. I let myself believe blindly that if I socialize enough, practice enough, and just do whatever I can to promote my work, I can get to the point where I can live a modest life off of my passion while still having time to be around the people I care about most.

I do this so I don’t discourage myself. Though sometimes, I can’t help but to feel that this ambition cannot be attained for X reasons. 

  1. I live in a place that is pretty barren when it comes to art. There are hobbyists here, but [excluding one case] I have yet to meet anyone who is devoted to art as I am and is doing it for a living. By no means am I implying that hobbyists are “lesser” or “below” me or are not “real artists”, but there is a stark difference between those who like to do art sometimes and those who thirst to do it for a lifetime and live off of it. 
  2. I am physically female. There’s no hiding it. I see a lot of art students who are female, but not a lot of female artists who work professionally [from what I have seen]. I do not know why this is so, and I cannot help to be discouraged by it. Why? Do they have children and fall off out of the industry? Or are there they there but not mentioned a lot? 
  3. I will likely not be able to go to a fancy art school. I, nor my now broken family, can’t afford it. Nor am I willing to pull a loan for it [I don’t want to pull a loan for anything]. I know that there are people in the industry doing well without schooling, but I feel that I am missing out on a lot of opportunities by not going. 
  4. [There are other reasons as well, but these are the biggest ones at the moment].

I don’t expect to make millions a month. A nice one bedroom apartment, good food, my spouse, art, and places to explore are all I need to be happy.

I know I’m not the only one who fears these things, or things similar to this. I just felt the need to vent them.

Oi

If you normally draw from the mind, draw something from life today.

If you normally draw from life, draw from the mind today.

Not just a sketch, but fill up a few pages if you have the time. It helps a ton.